My revised manuscript is due to my agent soon. (I still get a little giddy being able to say “my agent.”) I told her she could have it by the new year. Which gives me just under three weeks to get it done. And I’m dragging my feet.
Some authors will tell you that revision is their favorite part of the writing process. It’s absolutely NOT mine. I love the thrill of getting the first draft on paper, no little editors on my shoulder. That’s one of the reasons I’ve always been a fan of National Novel Writing Month, having participated twelve times in the fifteen years since I first discovered NaNoWriMo. I “won” eight of the twelve years, completing a 50,000 word novel in 30 days (or less). Four of my NaNo novels – three which I did complete during the month of November, one that I didn’t – went on to the revision phase and ultimately had full requests from agents. Sold My Soul is one of those four, the one I didn’t finish in 30 days. But that’s the one that finally earned the honor of representation.
This manuscript was revised multiple times for multiple agents, and will likely have to undergo even more revisions for whatever editor decides to purchase it. And I hate revising. It’s not so much the revision itself that I hate, it’s my consistent fear that revising a manuscript is going to make it worse, not better. Realistically, only once did a revision not make a book better, and it was a book I ended up shelving because I was telling the wrong character’s story and it wasn’t working. That doesn’t change the fact that honestly, the revision process scares me to death.
So I’ve made the small changes to the manuscript, but there are a few new scenes I have to write and layer in, and I’ve been dragging on that. Am I the only writer out there that HATES the process of revision?